The Unexpected Betrayal
Selfishness is not becoming of a Ninja…
My exterior, I expect, was the same steely face I usually express… But on the inside. I am embarrassed to say, I was a mess. Emotions running wild. I was betraying captain Shale, a man to whom I owe my life, and more, probably. I was betraying my teachings, my mother… All for the hope that perhaps I will finally find out if she is still alive? Does witch magic even work like that? I could barely hear Kahlia when inquired as to why I was there, I had to ask her to repeat her question. I explained the plan… A poorly constructed plan, but I had short time and with my emotions almost overshadowing my mind, at this point, it would have to do. I acquired some clothing for her to hide in, step one. To get her inside the ship, without arousing suspicion, step two. Then I hid her in the piles of fancy clothing we looted in our previous raid.
While out at sea, sahagin attacked the ship. Monstrous creatures. I took strides to rid the ones on the deck… But the first mate had been pinned down on the upper deck. I lept up to aid him, but I was kicked off, into the water, where their sharks were. This shark seemed friendly, however. It did nibble on me at first, which fucking hurt, but then it took me back to the ship… No doubt, the witch had something to do with it. We managed to scare them off, but with a few casualties.
Kahlia had aided in the battle, and the captain had discovered her. I did the only thing I could think of, accept my punishment. I confessed. He was very disappointed. I attempted to justify my actions, but he saw right through me… I never could lie to him. He asked me why… So I told him, about my mother, about what the witch had promised. I used every ounce of my being to halt the tears, at least in front of him. He kicked me out of his cabin, rightly so… A ninja you can’t trust, is no better than the rest of the crew. I took my things, stepped into the sleeping quarters, took a look around, and decided to find my own place. I found a little place among the beams of the ship, relatively close to the captain’s quarters. Whether I had been demoted or not, I am still captain Shale’s ninja… I would do my job, whether it was easy or not. As I settled in, emotions swelled over me… I couldn’t tell if it was related to Shale yelling at me, or finally finding a clue to find my mother. I did everything in my control to not make a sound, as the tears streamed down my face… I couldn’t let anyone of the crew see me like this. As a security chief, as a ninja, I had already lost too much face… Any more, and my work would be that much harder.
I laid in my new, very uncomfortable, sleeping area, for some time, before I worked up my courage to go speak to Kahlia… She had been thrown into the hollows below. I did my best to reassure her. But it was very clear that I was still very unbalanced, she did not seem to believe me. She did believe me when I said that Shale would not kill her. In desperation, I even said that I would protect her. How? What? I had already betrayed Shale ones, did I just promise to do it again, if I had to? It looks like my sensei was right, I was not ready to leave. I am a failure as a ninja. But… I am the only ninja Shale has. And he is counting on me, whether his position is forcing him to say differently right now. I have sworn myself to him, not an oath easily broken.
I went up on deck to clear my head, I sat on the aft railing playing my flute, sensing the whether… Life seems so much easier when you stretch out your perceptions to flow with the wind.